i was just in the bathroom thinking "did i once write something about a 'personal apocalypse' on that blog thing i have?" i think i did... hell, i don't even need to check. i know i did. that is so dark of me. jesus. the sad part is that the reason for my having remembered what i had written so long ago is that the words "personal apocalypse" were once again springing to my mind. organically. i am embarrassed for a past that hasn't changed at all.